Apart from all those disasters that I went through, these two years proved to be a turning point in my life particularly due to national service. So theres nothing much after what happened on my last post just that after Ive finished my final exams, Ive been on a temporary jobhunt for 3 weeks or so. And I worked at Bata selling shoes and accesories. It was like a birthday present to me as I got that job 2 days before my birthday. Work is tough as most of the times you had to sacrifice your weekends, since this is retail line and you only get off on a weekday. 

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Im now back to blogging because of certain reasons that I need to settle. The last post before this says about friendship, and Im continuing it from there. Ive been a way for too long because of incidents and things that almost damage my reputation. Not only my reputation but my familys reputation too. Its suprising how a close friend can hurt other peoples parents indirectly. Sometimes people talk bad about others behind their back. They may seem that others do not hear but walls do have hears and in this case, someone must have conveyed the message to my parents till they were offended. A simple words like, "what only" and "show off" can really have a deep impact. To the closest one it means nothing but to my family, it really hurts deep because they are doing it out of their goodwill.

Humans these days dont appreciate the good deed of others and they tend to forget till they criticise others. Sometimes it hurts so much that they come to a point where forgiveness is not an option. It only takes an outside party to destroy a friendship.. one to set up the arson and the other to start the arson. Thats how my life is like burning to pieces.

Now its 2013 and all i wanted now is to rebuild my life from where it ended

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Good morning guys. If those of you who have tracked my blog for a long time, its been a jolly 2 years since I last posted. And I remember I decided to close this blog but it seems that I have many stories to tell. So I decided to reopen this blogpost after 2 years. So much have happened during these hiatus. 


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Well so long have been leaving this dusty blog for years hahahaa.
And well just came back from break. I dont think Ive got lots of things to tell during the holidays. And all I know that 2011 is the year that brings me down much. Now its time where we know all our true friends who they were.
Truth hurts more than they could imagine.
So just try to revive this thing

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So now today is the start of the holidays 
After all the stresses of going through exams 
The worse part of exams is that it coincide with Eid Mubarak this year
And first paper falls on the eve of Eid.
And nevertheless paper was done and finished
Holidays is the time where I will get bored at hopme 24/7
and have been stuck to this comp since 1pm
After this well gotta go off
Well now I am in a stage of my last few months as a Temasek Poly student
And there are many things I love/hate about my life here
 But life here I have to admit is much better compared to my secondary school life
despite all that have happened in here......
Secondary school life....... should I say "thrash"
But despite the thrash, I still manage to pull through and get the course I wanted
and soon I will be graduating.........
And now I have invested something that will prove to me productive
I just got my majestic Nikon DSLR camera
And it seems that someone wants me to be the official photographer for them hahaa
Well it seems my holidays are not empty though

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And that is how the daily life of me as everyday I tried to keep myself flying high
But the limp is just only temporary
And when you feel that you are no longer limping, all you can afford to do is run
Run and chase after what you have
Sometimes we fall sometimes we pant along the way
But determination is all you need to get over these obstacles
And soon you feel like flying high
Fly high till you reach the sky of no limits












And thats how my life went

So now back to the main topic
and I know this post seems kinda late
I remember my last post was all about dikir barat
And how we are fighting for this competition.
Whoops
Here is the big family of dikir barat boys team
Man this is just boys i repeat JUST BOYS
I know the girls are also another big bunch
For this comp the boys will send two teams




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Well all those bad things happening in my secondary school life have really made an impact on me now..... And I am in the process of a comeback..... And alhamdulillah dikir barat have made me realise my potential And my capabilities

And I am glad that I am blessed to be in this Temasek Polytechnic Dikir Barat Family. So well today 24 July 2011 will be the big day for me. I will be facing and competing with more of my secondary school friends than last year. But for me fighting doesnt exist in my mind. Its between me and myself, my body.

And I wanna prove that I have come back.... Thats my main aim of this..... A comeback is all it needs to keep them silent and well if I can show them, I am a big winner regardless of our position.
So lets go!!!!

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These painful lesson including what happened 5 months ago taught me a lot of things about friendship, patience and how you handle those problems.

Seriously, for me, I cant keep all these feelings for long no matter how long it takes. The more you keep things to yourself the more hurt you will become and now I am in a stage where I am almost letting go of my feelings that I kept for 4 years straight

Breakups, turning their back on someone, ego, these are the things that can ruin a friendship... And I am glad that these people make me realise who are they actually. At first glance we may consider them good but as time passes, its a whole lot different.

And now it all ends here. Let me just walk alone with a limp on my feet....

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2008 is the year I bacame almost dead, given what Ive gone through and all those war of words that could hurt me. If those war of words are like real swords, maybe Im dead like pieces of meat by just chopping me with those swords.

So it was PE lesson and the pressure from my 'classmates' caused me to keep my lifelong anger for almost one year. And by now seeing their faces have made my feelings become more angrier.

And I am in an all boys group. You know in an all boys group, we tend to be rough. And the first game i remember we have to act like crabs throwing balls. And Jacky again became the villain. He throw the ball so hard to a girls face till she cried and he put the blame on me. I was scolded by her.

Okay thats notthe point. I remember when I played rough and I remember I caused a girl to be hurt. I pushed her down badly and I get scolded. When I am not in the mood and im playing a competitive game, I will tend to play rough to release my emotions

So the war continues and the moment when I graduate from secondary school, I am like Germany, defeated after the war. Hopefully I will never meet them again because thinking of my 'classmates' makes me hurt even more and here I am writing to release my emotion and hopefully in one way or another alleviate my anger. Just wished we never cross path again. But definitely not the school because this school taught me who true friends are

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2007 is considered to be one of the greatest downfall of my life. Seriously you sometimes gonna get disturbed for nothing and even without you even creating any trouble they just disturbed you just like that.

And so it started off one day with Jacky. He always like to sit at my place without my permission and he got me so frustrated. Sooooo frustrated that I feel like punching him last time. And I remember correctly it was one day before the first paper. He anyhow just sat at my place and ask me to sit at another place.

And so had no choice but to sit beside siew ting. And I remember correctly how siew ting tried to get me out of the place by just kicking the chair and table. And everybody was just looking at me like that. Luckily at that time was fasting month. If not I could just shout at her and throw the bag away. I remeber she saying " I could have just killed you....." In fact I did not even disturbed her or even bother bout her. And now she is saying she wants to kill me. Who wants to bother about the girl(should have said some expletives but try to be polite). If she killed me, she would also have gone to hell if she do so.

So siew ting kicked and kicked till my pencil case dropped. Anger is fuelling in my head. Okay after much kicking she stopped. But worse is yet to come. My only calculator that I hoped for was damaged by Jacky. Last time I am not good at expletives so I am just a vegetable not knowing what to say but all I know was to keep calm

4 years on and this scar is still fresh in my heart. So im telling you, dont think that I will forget whatever you did to me because one day these things will sure be brought up. Whatever you did, whatever you say will one day, you will get it one day because what goes around comes around

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Okay before I start, I just wanna apologise if I ever cause any unhappiness to you in anyway from 5 years ago to now. I know I had to admit I was an attention seeker last time, doing all I could and even doing the lamest of the lamest thing. But if you think thay all I post here is because of my lamest act like this, well its not, because the more I keep things to myself, the more I will suffer throughout my life. And this is the only place I can pour my thoughts and relieve suffering. Flashbacks will be posted here once in a while.

So I was 15 and just got my IC. So well my lame act of attention seeking i purposely put my I.C at the front wallet. Happen to me that I also unknowingly displayed my personal photo. A Neoprint photo if u rmbr last time. It was supposed to be taken as a family neoprint photo and because of some reasons, well I also wanted a pic of myself in that ONLY. So i got myself a self potrait pic.

At that time it was recess and some of us stayed back during recess. I was down to get things and using my coins in my pocket to buy. When I came back, Small Des told me to look for my wallet which I accidentally left. And I was panicked because of my important documents in there. So I looked frantically for it and well gt my wallet and someone told me to look for anything inside thats missing. I shouted "What you all took?" Under stress, Quek purposely wrote something on the board in which it annoys me so quickly erase the board and well stull searching wondering what is lost before I realise its my photograph. With the wallet left on the table, Ah ma and Koko put the photo in my wallet and played monkey. I was so angry that I charged to get my wallet.

And with Quek still doing his mischevous act, I am now playing a monkey between Ah ma and Koko and even Bboy Mir plus Quek. That really angered me. Well seeing me in a state where its at its prone, Zeke just took my bag and walked away to his class. This fuelled my anger.

By the time I got my wallet back and now my mission is to get my bag back. My bag has become a target because last time I used to carry my bags full of textbooks to and fro from home plus some sheets. That made my bag like a camping bag. From monkeying with Ah Ma, Koko, Bboy Mir and Quek, now Im monkeying with my bag with Zeke, YY, Noshenko and Ami. But seriously this is purposely to shame me right in front of their class thanks to devilish Zeke. And well I brought my anger here so all I could do was to scratch Ami. And still my hopes of getting my bag are diminished until someone just said to give the bag to me. I got my bag back but before I do, I gave a deep stare of anger at each of them. Feel like punching them and even kicked them one by one but my intuition tells me to leave them alone and I even managed to push Zeke before I got back to class. So at class Im almost came to tears but I hold back my tears and well thinking of calling my parents but I dun wanna make things difficult for them cos they had to come to school 2 times for 2 yrs because of me getting bullied. So I just made a fake call to my parents, just to tell them how bad situation is.

Upon hearing, Ama scolded me why of all the solutions must I call my parents. Even Bboy Mir say "Youre a big boy, no need to depend. Why must u use ur parents as a resort?" Then Zeke came in and picked on me again using his words but before he could pick on me, Rina came and scolded Zeke, saying that I called my parents and if anything happens to me, my parents will look for her and she felt as if she was involved. She had been in this situation for two years in which I was in this situation and anything, she will explain to my mum. Zeke soon left the room and since then, my classmates dislike me because of this...... My actions of resulting to my parents as a final solution. This is the turning point to the darkest day of my life.

And I told this story to my parents 3 years later, very long indeed. Keeping things to myself and let things happen and when the time strikes then all will be known. But for every story there are lessons to be learnt.

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Sometimes you do something you gotta lie all you can to cover yourself up. Especially when you wanna do something bad. You pick on people put the blame on them claiming "Hey that wasnt my fault. You are starting to get on my nerves". And now people still resort to disturbing someone weaker or smaller whenever he/she did a mistake that unknowingly pisses people off like jokes. Okay some jokes are untolerable thats a fact. But when these things took too far beyond, all eyes are on them and they will do all they can to just be dominant. Like well having secret followers to bombard them with all their pain in the *** comments and even make use of convos with others to just hurt someone. Words are the sword of the body and tears are just blood due to the words. So what do they use? For example, you saw someone you dont like and first thing that comes to your mind was "Hey how come his ear is like gnomes?" So all you do is approached hom and called "Hey gnome, you need a surgery to your ear." Apologies if any of these is related to you but this is just a metaphor of what I experienced

Or even you saw someone with a big head or a head too large for the body and you go swinging your head in front of him considering the inertia of the head causes it to swing. This is how dominant they can be.

And to even worsen the fact, even friendships with others worsened. Just imagine the close friendship you built with someone and because of all this ill treatment of sword bleeding of words you started to be influenced by them. For example: someone ask "never go lunch with ....?" Or " Dun go to .... For.... Go here..." these are the things that people do to like sort of break the friendship. You got someone you brainwash and you use him as a weapon. Well dont mind him showing off his hatred but using someone to spread hatred.... Even worse a close friend well in the end you all are gonna pay for the mistake

So my point here is in life we all have surely someone who is unhappy about each of us. Humans are made different, with different views, attributes, physical and intelligence. So what happens if people do not like either of these I mentioned and maybe more? Discrimination and hatred followed. So just open your eyes and ears and reflect and not just making fun of people. All you need is a hit on the head once for you to realise where you stand in this

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Introducing my new "cockpit"
All that you need cockpit. Well havent been playing the flight sim for many months well finally got to feel again how is it like flying with real aircraft.
And for the term break I will equip myself with this training to fly like a pilot and now looking for new joystick for different aircaft. Tried it on a bigger aircraft but it doesnt seem to work as well so after seeing kenneths flight set, I swear that Im gonna look for it but lets put aside for the next few years cos I herd that the new FSX is coming out.... Hmmm

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Wahh this is what happens if u left blog for long.....
I
Well now it seems that we understand the true colours of everyone as time pass by
Let me tell you, some people just purposely want to find fault with others without the person findingfault with him
And now all blame is on me
And well some are just blind followers everything just follow without understanding the situation
True enough I easily get disturbed by most of us but sometimes this is a test of patience for us to handle situation.
And when we are unable to handle this tricky situation like facing with people.... Others will view us in a negative way and soon followers started and soon you will be challenging in a 1 on 10 battle.....
Discrimination occured and it got worse as time passes
And the moment when discrimination started, you are at a losing end.....
And what hurts most is just an incident..... Only one incident is all it takes for a friendship to be severed even those who are just blind followers

I wont say much because I hate saying much. So to those who started finding fault, better start to realise your wrongdoings before its all too late. And to the blind followers who just follow without even knowing the situation, open your eyes and think what have I done to you and what you have done to me..... To sum it up all I need is to reflect what you have done to me and what Ive done to you.... Before its too late

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well i havent been blogging for almost 2 months now and now its almost covered with dust
Well i remember the last post is in january and throughout these few months its been a tough call for me especially if we know who the real friends are and who are not... Didnt know these people do exist
and there you are behaving like sec sch kids
Having clans and attacking one person
Well i dunno what you will benefit from that. Trying to act big huh? I know i am prone to be dusturbed I have to admit that but what u have been doing was way too far

But I am thankful now that everything has ended and after the internship of ups and downs well gy myself involved in a malay production play as a calefare. "Oh Safiyyah" is the name of the play. And I heard that its full house for this well makes me feel grand for sometime yeah. The show is on March 31st so hope u cn come down and see yeah.





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And well time passes very fast
Soon we will be welcoming the new poly students cum April
The release of the O lvl result means that they will come here in shortest time

Talking bout o lvls well just gt the news from my cousin mustapha
He did badly in his subjects
Well he sounded sad when he announced his result to my mum
Well times are tough nowadays
I remember when I sat for o lvls
The english paper is the killer
And now I heard that maths paper I think is difficult
Well seriously times are getting tough
So is my programme at Lufthansa Technik
And juz now I finally manahed to do housing of the power supply
And i was like lagging behind, way behind
So tomorrow need to settle the wiring

Seriously i cannot wait for chinese new year break
Cos ever since LTT started Ihave gone bonkers
Well schedules are tight though
And because of that hard to find a slot for my driving test
And i dunno if I were allowed to take the test on the tentative date (nxt wk)
Hope Mr Koh would allow me to cos time would pass by very fast
And i dun wanna waste anymore money on this

Breaks breaks breaks
Well i cant wait for the february getaway
Lets just say that Ill keep my getaway secret
And its hard to post this blog on iphone
And well thinking of switching to tumblr
And i remembered that I have a tumblr acc
But I cant rmbr its password
Haiz
But I think bloggers can do good esp making formal blog post like this
To me tumblr is an informal way of blogging
So if u still use blogger be proud
Cos u have shown ur professionalism in expressing urself
Haha but tumblr could also be useful for those ewho are busy and had no time to blog

I wonder if I could continue doing this blogpost
But i hope i cn do it
Consistently
Let this blog post tell my failures and successes
And let this blog post tell how I picked up from my past struggles in life
Be it lve, friendship, jealousy or anything
But i hqve to admit that I am nt being jealous of anybody
Soi hope that u cn read my Archive to see how far ive come

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well time flies very fast the moment when we said this on 1/1/2010 at 12midnight
and now as 2010 came to a close, these words are a thing of the past
and now its Hello 2011
well yeah as new year comes, I realise that I am too fast to be a year older
so 2011 I will turn 19
and now I take this time to reflect on myself on 2010
1. Past and the present
- And 2010 this is the biggest tumble ever for me. I could not even describe how the feeling when talked about what happened some 3-4 years back. And Im glad that I made it through these times. But still people from these times came back to haunt me. And well whatever said by them is all false, just to add the misery of the doubt. But the world is full of lies, anybody can be fooled but one day the truth is gonna hurt itself. 


And I still could remember of how someone tried to talk bad about me in which in fact its all false facts, even though some parts might be true. I remember how you told my mum about my "bad" things and how I ended up being ashamed in front of everyone at changi village. Seriously u know the feeling how I was humiliated in public!!! And well my mum came to tell me who did it only one month after the humiliation.
2. Of love and romance
- well honestly I failed a lot when it comes to love and romance and 2010 is the worst year of love and romance.... and I remember the fateful split in 2006 and since then I became the failure in this. But insyallah in 2011 it will change course. And hopefully for the better
3. Interest
- haha and well 2010 was the year I entered dikir barat arts scene. Well I love dikir barat since young but it seems to me that my interest has deepened when our dikir barat nteam won 2nd in inter poly competition. And well its like nine months that I'm in this arena but I hope that I would be able to deepen my knowledge in this as years passed, and I have high hopes for this...
4. Studies
-haha well it seems that I've done pretty average in studies and certainly I don't wanna drop my grades further to lose my chance to get into a university degree. And hopefully I could happily graduate with diploma in Aerospace Electronics with a better grade and hopefully a certificate of recognition with Lufthansa Technik


So well still have more to write for this but dunno when shall I put it....  haha well my reflections will continue later today when I dig out all my 2010 memories
Ok ciao!!!!! and HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!!!!

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Hola
Welcome to holidays
Yeah finally time to relax, distress
and forget all about internship
and well now we are almost entering 2011
and well new resolution
So whats ur resolution?
Hmm well diff people have different resolution
like this year well the resolution is to strengthen friendship
so for 2011
i am going on a journey of soul searching
Well all I wanted is to find out my hidden qualities
and figuring how it can be put to good use
that's my main resolution
Other resolution?
-umm be tukang karut or juara of dikir barat
-joining outside group of dikir barat
-hoping to find my soulmate (insyallah)
-meeting new friends 


Well probably these reasons are somewhat realistic
but its up to HIM to fulfil my resolution
but for now jus focus on working out on these resolution



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And now im falling ill
And workshop i had to make trips to the toilet roll near the sink
to get rid of this irritating thing
Haiz... well mucus keep running out of my nose like a tap
Now its the flu season already
and wheeezzz!!!!!!!!!!
Tissue, tissue here and there
Hope it doesnt get worse tmrw


Brrrr
Ah yes now I managed to make this blog alive
hehehe
so i could give my link to ppl so that they can read about whats happening
esp me
hehee
Wonder how many people visit my blog
will it end up like stock market?

not exactly the statistics of my blog
okay time to''angkat'' a bit bout my blog
well this blog was created in 18 april 2009 under a different name
cant remember what name it is
changed its name on 1 May 2009
again I dunno the name
and on 1 april 2010, the current name still stands
but post are rare
so it was between july 2009 that my blog became a hit
just like the song Ïce Ice Baby"in the mid 90s
but it was a one hit wonder at that time
now Im trying to be not really a professional blogger
But just a personal blogger sharing personal views
So apart from my daily life
I will bring topics up also here 
So pls come here to see the topics that Im gonna raise

yes we want ur opinions too
so make use of the tagboard to comment





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Well all I can say is to say hello to year end vacation
Two weeks time and by now I have felt the bore, anguish and happiness in my internship
Now by then, we might demand a long break
And well the year end break would give me sone hope for rejuvenation
Well certainly
Meeting lecturers of diff background proved to be a test to us for some
Some follow steictly to rules, others tend to be a bit flexible
But well that is life
Meeting people both good and bad, hate em, love em, praise em
Thats what we all deserve in the end

And 2011 is around the corner
And what i wish for for 2011? hmm
first thing
-get a driving licence
-get my certificate of recognition by Lufthansa Technical Training
-be a happier person
-hoping to save as much money as possible
and lastly
-meeting someone special in life

I would say the last one is an option for me cos I had to put my ambitions and commitment first
Ambition I would say is to work in the aerospace industry
Maybe I could work in maintenance, repair and overhaul?
Or even get a degree, probably in engineering?
Hmm.....
But insyallah if Allah permits for me to meet the one, I would be most thankful to Him
Now im 18 years old, going to 19 in March (4 months time) and yet still on a journey to discover the inner self


And well cant wait to get my licence
Class3 but the road is so bumpy
Well of course there would always be obstacle on ur way
And well need to overcome it ourselves
And hope that I will pass my test
Ok cya

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Hehe yeah
Now its been a few weeks since I last updated this dusty old blog
Now well my blogging mode has going down
and now hoping that my first attempt to keep this alive has returned
now a new fresh blog emerge
old style of blogging have gone downm and out
even my style of typing have gone down and out to haha
see the obvious spelling mistake
now i am busy with my 78 day internship programme with Lufthansa Techinical Training
haha must highlight


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Well now that my attachment seems to keep me away from my free times
well there is a reason why I said so
Today I juz finished my module of my class 3 prac
so I havent book yet the test daTE
Gosh haTe my new keyboard
where I tend to accidentally press  THE caps like his
Irritating rite haha
Okay anyway
Well when i want to book test date today
The available date clashes wif my LTT time
MAn gosh how i wish if LTT was like my TP timetable
And we cannot book a later dsate than what is stipulated
haiz....
Gosh
So now back to LTT where boredom is still in its early stages of attachment
How I wish we could move forward to some workshop/practical stuffs
Man i hate all the boring things in class
with 10 mins break
How I wish lunch is a bit longer
Man....
Wish things change
Haiz
And now my cca
Well now we are on par for our next competition
Haha
cant wait for the next competition
Battling with the big boys.... bigger than us
They seemed more professional in this
But whatever it is gotta keep believing
Ok so short and sweet
And ciao

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Well so long nvr post
well im in a hurry
so no more fanciful post
well LTT has just begun
The start of my MP/SIP
and well its 78 days of training for this
and it will end the day after my bday
hopefully my 19th bdae present will be
I repeat will be a graduation from LTT
plus certificate of recognition
Urrrgghhh i need that job in aerospace industry!!!!!
Oh well
today deepavali is a bore
and tomorrow is my training
Well time to get my blogging shoes again...
How many times muz I say that yeah??
haha ok bye

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2.1
And it all goes just like that
well the semester's pretty great where I made new friends and even strengthen our friendship through new things
and well glory has been on my side
And well projects have been a thing of the past 
and we put it through even though the road's pretty hard
exams over and well stil managed to maintait a gpa of 3.02
compared to my first sem in poly where i get 3.54
haiz need to manage at least 3.5 to get into uni
lol i surely can do that, if i do well in my final 3 sem
Holidays
well thats what ive been waiting for
taking a break from all the stress and pain
well apart from my education journey my life journey is also very bumpy
nothing's going right for me
but well i will be away this wed to calm my soul 
to where? well some of my frens have gone to shanghai or philippines
and well for me, i would rather take a break in the rural areas
I need nature to calm myself down
Again i will be going off to kelantan 
miss the place there lots and lots
And of course i will miss my mates here 
speaking of which man i left some stuff havent packed
oh well ok cya around



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Well it seems that i have left this blog for lng period of time
And currently things seem alright
Well of course now its holiday and speaking of holidays well you might ask me where do i go for holiday. But anyway well Exam results are okay my cumulative gpa is 3.07( must buck up) if not i cannot get into uni. Well i dun wanna end up in overseas university. Imagine that. Shows and more shows of dikir barat keep comin and im excited about the next competition
Well ill be away for a 3D2N trip to kelantan well i dunno how long ive ever been been there
Haha but anyways keep the post short here so c you soon

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Well
Miss dikir training
Juz had out training juz now
And well we had two shows coming up
The moves are much interesting
And well enjoyed it

Soccer game is fun
But I was outpowered by hamdy
Haha
One point I came crashing to the ground
And I miss lots of golden opportunity on goal
Haiz
Tough luck
Really really tough luck
And well after outpowered and outwitted
Home rest
And I had a thigh injury
After that
So man pain
Arrhgh
Ok well tomorrow is another boring day

Dunno what to do

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And yes
a semester of suffering comes to a close
and now time to go back to regular blogging
and honestly the road's getting tough
since I join dikir barat, had not much time to blog
and even an assignment that is heavy duty i would say
and yeah u noe what does heavy duty means?
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ahah
well not this kind of heavy duty
assignment after assignment after assignment
well must write a report
well report writing suck i would say
honestly
and the mct assignment
well hate programming ttm
thats why i dun wanna go to it school haha
and man i wonder till now why must we learn c programming....
aside from that
the cds well its far from over now
late submission
and well now i need a longer break
all thx to stress build up
and hope i will nvr take supp paper in which i eventually would
especially in mct and elnfas



Well can i say goodbye to this?
maybe maybe..........no
cos im waiting for supp paper
and confirm
now have to note the supp paper date for mct
ok studies aside

well its been so long since i last touched ps3
and maybe getting my hands on it
haha yesterday's game at ruzana's house prompted me to get my hands on ps3
so maybe lets game on......
oh k thats it for today
c u around soon

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Yes Well so how's the blog doing
Lemme guess well it's on the verge of closing down
But I managed to revive it though
Haiz well it's almost to end of 2.1
And I have to admit that I have been slacking this semester
Haiz
And it seems to me that the downfall has begun
And well now threats are from people who try to create lies
About me
Well honestly I am so frustrated
Put aside frustration
And it's gonna be the end of fasting
Month
And well Friday it's raya time
Can't wait
So blogging mood is Gona go back tonite
So lookout

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well im gonna revive back my blog to its usual state i promise
well its been a while since i last blog
and now its youth olympic games season
and most of us are volunteers and some athletes
well this time i needa catch up with my studies
studies studies studies
and also concentrate on getting my class 3 licence
and well it seems im so slow in progress
well had to concentrate concentrate
well thats all i can blog
c u in my nxt post

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AND YESS!!!!!
Finally 2.1 had ended!!!!!
and finally after a journey full of escaping potholes, bumpy rides and even trips, falls and slips all thanks to projects aafter projects after projects after projects after projects after assignments after assignments
and finally friday is the day where its time to rejoice the stressful semester as it cames to a close
well this sem is filled with lots of shows from production crew to dikir barat
and for production crew where my last show is the cca awards
BAd things happen to me as I met with a minor accident before the event
but that was one to remember though
dikir barat well towards the closure of sem
we had shows like national day celebrations and recently this morning national day observance ceremony at sengkang with the girls team
in which I and some from my boys team had to be the percussionists for them
fell ill during the last part of 2.1
and well rushing through projects esp MOE
where we delay and delay but in the end we presented
yeah 
and well fasting month is 2 days away
and well im ready for it
and tmrw the torch will be coming to temasek poly
well expect it to be a mega event
so well thats it



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well well well
again i left this blog for too long
but I promise that once 2.1 is over my blog is back to its own life
haha
well 2.1 is being a major blow for me
where my patience is tested
haiz
well you cant escape all the accusation, profanity
and sometimes its hard for me to control
until I could just wanting to murder them instead
well...well....welll
just as I was about to pick myself up from the ground
you pulled me harder to the ground and into the hole of darkness
all because of the past
man hard for me to forget the past, and no matter how much you tried to even heal the wound
the pain is still there for me
pain because of heartbreaks, pain because of jealousy, i became victim of all these
and its gonna stay in my life till the day where i will close my eyes
man
O Allah please give me some strength to move on
I cant move on in this
and the tears I shed have run out and its hard for me to express my true emotions
haiz.....
well guess have to stay on like this till I die....
man

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Well *blows the dust
Hmmm nt clear
*bllows the dust again
well my blog seems dead
and yes finally i manage to revive it
haha
well ever since im gone
Ive been suffering with all the struggles of my life
Well i was being accused of somethin that i did not even do at all
well maybe yes whatever happens in the past do have an impact on me of the future
people who tried to make a mountain out of a molehill
well last time im just an irritatin boy who irritates others
frm being irritating to annoying
and yes and soon some stranger juz came into the pic
all because of my "frens" who told everything bout me
trying to shame me in front of them
I dun care who you tell everything bout me
but Im confident that you all sooner or later are gonna pay for what you have done
and even my self respect was threatened
well i wonder what done I have wrong for you other than annoying you
or even hurt you
Well if you think youre jealous of me then think of urself
be thankful over what you have
cos by being thankful, you treasure more of what you have and not even try to be jealous of others
by hurting them
well all that i can say is that you try to rub the salt in the wound
......
grrr i wont talk much
but I hope everything that you do has its consequences
so be prepared to face it
And well 2 weeks more semester end
and wish i could press the ffw button so I cn revise on my subjects and graduate the semester
well
and septembers gonna be a long month
cos we gt 2 month break
longer than the usual
and cant wait for LTT programme
yeah!!!!!

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well for how long I havent been blogging
ummmm quite long though
well now im rushing thru all my projects and assignment
man 2.1 is the most hectic in my poly life so far
urggghhhh
well let me list out the things that bothers me in 2.1

1. ELNFAS project
-assignment
-group work
-presentation
2.Efund project
-Lab experiment (which we had lots of prob juz now)
-PResentation
-and miscellaneous
3.MCT
-PBL
-Project development
4. Management of Enterprise
-Business plan
5. Class tee
-no comment.... headache
now you see how much stressed I am from my absence so far
till i gt nothing to post about these days
serious
well cant wait for school sem to end
in which I can solely concentrate of getting my licence
and well seems that in my account i have no more $$$ left
need to ask dad to topup
if nt.... i cant take the FTT and practical test
haiz
and man i feel that im no longer who i was in the past
In the past, I used to be the hyper livewire 
with 500v of unstoppable madness
now im juz a reserved figure.....
juz keepin quiet mostly
well is that a progress or so?
To some yes
but honestly, some things bothering me all these while
and thats why im in the state as i am now
brrr
somethings gonna get fixed somewhere here
well ok tmrw my quiz
and well nvr study
gd job!

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Seems that ive been away and away and away too long
and now im back and back and back with a big twist
haha
well now its time to get back to projects and projects
projects projects
somebody just stab me in the back so i can end this suffering
haiz
man i cant stand

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well seems that i might go on an occasion where i might post this on rare occasions
well now ever since i have a cca, well no time for this and that
haha
well man these few days sees me as very tiring
well mon had to prepare for the cca awards tomorrow
and well im bored of handling the lights at TCC
haiz
well today programming i almost fell asleep
haiz
and MOE well i am rushing thru the lab assignment
no time so juz copy
and at dikir barat, just get used to season our voices
sigh
im falling asleep soon
so bb

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