Okay before I start, I just wanna apologise if I ever cause any unhappiness to you in anyway from 5 years ago to now. I know I had to admit I was an attention seeker last time, doing all I could and even doing the lamest of the lamest thing. But if you think thay all I post here is because of my lamest act like this, well its not, because the more I keep things to myself, the more I will suffer throughout my life. And this is the only place I can pour my thoughts and relieve suffering. Flashbacks will be posted here once in a while.

So I was 15 and just got my IC. So well my lame act of attention seeking i purposely put my I.C at the front wallet. Happen to me that I also unknowingly displayed my personal photo. A Neoprint photo if u rmbr last time. It was supposed to be taken as a family neoprint photo and because of some reasons, well I also wanted a pic of myself in that ONLY. So i got myself a self potrait pic.

At that time it was recess and some of us stayed back during recess. I was down to get things and using my coins in my pocket to buy. When I came back, Small Des told me to look for my wallet which I accidentally left. And I was panicked because of my important documents in there. So I looked frantically for it and well gt my wallet and someone told me to look for anything inside thats missing. I shouted "What you all took?" Under stress, Quek purposely wrote something on the board in which it annoys me so quickly erase the board and well stull searching wondering what is lost before I realise its my photograph. With the wallet left on the table, Ah ma and Koko put the photo in my wallet and played monkey. I was so angry that I charged to get my wallet.

And with Quek still doing his mischevous act, I am now playing a monkey between Ah ma and Koko and even Bboy Mir plus Quek. That really angered me. Well seeing me in a state where its at its prone, Zeke just took my bag and walked away to his class. This fuelled my anger.

By the time I got my wallet back and now my mission is to get my bag back. My bag has become a target because last time I used to carry my bags full of textbooks to and fro from home plus some sheets. That made my bag like a camping bag. From monkeying with Ah Ma, Koko, Bboy Mir and Quek, now Im monkeying with my bag with Zeke, YY, Noshenko and Ami. But seriously this is purposely to shame me right in front of their class thanks to devilish Zeke. And well I brought my anger here so all I could do was to scratch Ami. And still my hopes of getting my bag are diminished until someone just said to give the bag to me. I got my bag back but before I do, I gave a deep stare of anger at each of them. Feel like punching them and even kicked them one by one but my intuition tells me to leave them alone and I even managed to push Zeke before I got back to class. So at class Im almost came to tears but I hold back my tears and well thinking of calling my parents but I dun wanna make things difficult for them cos they had to come to school 2 times for 2 yrs because of me getting bullied. So I just made a fake call to my parents, just to tell them how bad situation is.

Upon hearing, Ama scolded me why of all the solutions must I call my parents. Even Bboy Mir say "Youre a big boy, no need to depend. Why must u use ur parents as a resort?" Then Zeke came in and picked on me again using his words but before he could pick on me, Rina came and scolded Zeke, saying that I called my parents and if anything happens to me, my parents will look for her and she felt as if she was involved. She had been in this situation for two years in which I was in this situation and anything, she will explain to my mum. Zeke soon left the room and since then, my classmates dislike me because of this...... My actions of resulting to my parents as a final solution. This is the turning point to the darkest day of my life.

And I told this story to my parents 3 years later, very long indeed. Keeping things to myself and let things happen and when the time strikes then all will be known. But for every story there are lessons to be learnt.