Well all those bad things happening in my secondary school life have really made an impact on me now..... And I am in the process of a comeback..... And alhamdulillah dikir barat have made me realise my potential And my capabilities

And I am glad that I am blessed to be in this Temasek Polytechnic Dikir Barat Family. So well today 24 July 2011 will be the big day for me. I will be facing and competing with more of my secondary school friends than last year. But for me fighting doesnt exist in my mind. Its between me and myself, my body.

And I wanna prove that I have come back.... Thats my main aim of this..... A comeback is all it needs to keep them silent and well if I can show them, I am a big winner regardless of our position.
So lets go!!!!

These painful lesson including what happened 5 months ago taught me a lot of things about friendship, patience and how you handle those problems.

Seriously, for me, I cant keep all these feelings for long no matter how long it takes. The more you keep things to yourself the more hurt you will become and now I am in a stage where I am almost letting go of my feelings that I kept for 4 years straight

Breakups, turning their back on someone, ego, these are the things that can ruin a friendship... And I am glad that these people make me realise who are they actually. At first glance we may consider them good but as time passes, its a whole lot different.

And now it all ends here. Let me just walk alone with a limp on my feet....

2008 is the year I bacame almost dead, given what Ive gone through and all those war of words that could hurt me. If those war of words are like real swords, maybe Im dead like pieces of meat by just chopping me with those swords.

So it was PE lesson and the pressure from my 'classmates' caused me to keep my lifelong anger for almost one year. And by now seeing their faces have made my feelings become more angrier.

And I am in an all boys group. You know in an all boys group, we tend to be rough. And the first game i remember we have to act like crabs throwing balls. And Jacky again became the villain. He throw the ball so hard to a girls face till she cried and he put the blame on me. I was scolded by her.

Okay thats notthe point. I remember when I played rough and I remember I caused a girl to be hurt. I pushed her down badly and I get scolded. When I am not in the mood and im playing a competitive game, I will tend to play rough to release my emotions

So the war continues and the moment when I graduate from secondary school, I am like Germany, defeated after the war. Hopefully I will never meet them again because thinking of my 'classmates' makes me hurt even more and here I am writing to release my emotion and hopefully in one way or another alleviate my anger. Just wished we never cross path again. But definitely not the school because this school taught me who true friends are

2007 is considered to be one of the greatest downfall of my life. Seriously you sometimes gonna get disturbed for nothing and even without you even creating any trouble they just disturbed you just like that.

And so it started off one day with Jacky. He always like to sit at my place without my permission and he got me so frustrated. Sooooo frustrated that I feel like punching him last time. And I remember correctly it was one day before the first paper. He anyhow just sat at my place and ask me to sit at another place.

And so had no choice but to sit beside siew ting. And I remember correctly how siew ting tried to get me out of the place by just kicking the chair and table. And everybody was just looking at me like that. Luckily at that time was fasting month. If not I could just shout at her and throw the bag away. I remeber she saying " I could have just killed you....." In fact I did not even disturbed her or even bother bout her. And now she is saying she wants to kill me. Who wants to bother about the girl(should have said some expletives but try to be polite). If she killed me, she would also have gone to hell if she do so.

So siew ting kicked and kicked till my pencil case dropped. Anger is fuelling in my head. Okay after much kicking she stopped. But worse is yet to come. My only calculator that I hoped for was damaged by Jacky. Last time I am not good at expletives so I am just a vegetable not knowing what to say but all I know was to keep calm

4 years on and this scar is still fresh in my heart. So im telling you, dont think that I will forget whatever you did to me because one day these things will sure be brought up. Whatever you did, whatever you say will one day, you will get it one day because what goes around comes around