Okay before I start, I just wanna apologise if I ever cause any unhappiness to you in anyway from 5 years ago to now. I know I had to admit I was an attention seeker last time, doing all I could and even doing the lamest of the lamest thing. But if you think thay all I post here is because of my lamest act like this, well its not, because the more I keep things to myself, the more I will suffer throughout my life. And this is the only place I can pour my thoughts and relieve suffering. Flashbacks will be posted here once in a while.

So I was 15 and just got my IC. So well my lame act of attention seeking i purposely put my I.C at the front wallet. Happen to me that I also unknowingly displayed my personal photo. A Neoprint photo if u rmbr last time. It was supposed to be taken as a family neoprint photo and because of some reasons, well I also wanted a pic of myself in that ONLY. So i got myself a self potrait pic.

At that time it was recess and some of us stayed back during recess. I was down to get things and using my coins in my pocket to buy. When I came back, Small Des told me to look for my wallet which I accidentally left. And I was panicked because of my important documents in there. So I looked frantically for it and well gt my wallet and someone told me to look for anything inside thats missing. I shouted "What you all took?" Under stress, Quek purposely wrote something on the board in which it annoys me so quickly erase the board and well stull searching wondering what is lost before I realise its my photograph. With the wallet left on the table, Ah ma and Koko put the photo in my wallet and played monkey. I was so angry that I charged to get my wallet.

And with Quek still doing his mischevous act, I am now playing a monkey between Ah ma and Koko and even Bboy Mir plus Quek. That really angered me. Well seeing me in a state where its at its prone, Zeke just took my bag and walked away to his class. This fuelled my anger.

By the time I got my wallet back and now my mission is to get my bag back. My bag has become a target because last time I used to carry my bags full of textbooks to and fro from home plus some sheets. That made my bag like a camping bag. From monkeying with Ah Ma, Koko, Bboy Mir and Quek, now Im monkeying with my bag with Zeke, YY, Noshenko and Ami. But seriously this is purposely to shame me right in front of their class thanks to devilish Zeke. And well I brought my anger here so all I could do was to scratch Ami. And still my hopes of getting my bag are diminished until someone just said to give the bag to me. I got my bag back but before I do, I gave a deep stare of anger at each of them. Feel like punching them and even kicked them one by one but my intuition tells me to leave them alone and I even managed to push Zeke before I got back to class. So at class Im almost came to tears but I hold back my tears and well thinking of calling my parents but I dun wanna make things difficult for them cos they had to come to school 2 times for 2 yrs because of me getting bullied. So I just made a fake call to my parents, just to tell them how bad situation is.

Upon hearing, Ama scolded me why of all the solutions must I call my parents. Even Bboy Mir say "Youre a big boy, no need to depend. Why must u use ur parents as a resort?" Then Zeke came in and picked on me again using his words but before he could pick on me, Rina came and scolded Zeke, saying that I called my parents and if anything happens to me, my parents will look for her and she felt as if she was involved. She had been in this situation for two years in which I was in this situation and anything, she will explain to my mum. Zeke soon left the room and since then, my classmates dislike me because of this...... My actions of resulting to my parents as a final solution. This is the turning point to the darkest day of my life.

And I told this story to my parents 3 years later, very long indeed. Keeping things to myself and let things happen and when the time strikes then all will be known. But for every story there are lessons to be learnt.

Sometimes you do something you gotta lie all you can to cover yourself up. Especially when you wanna do something bad. You pick on people put the blame on them claiming "Hey that wasnt my fault. You are starting to get on my nerves". And now people still resort to disturbing someone weaker or smaller whenever he/she did a mistake that unknowingly pisses people off like jokes. Okay some jokes are untolerable thats a fact. But when these things took too far beyond, all eyes are on them and they will do all they can to just be dominant. Like well having secret followers to bombard them with all their pain in the *** comments and even make use of convos with others to just hurt someone. Words are the sword of the body and tears are just blood due to the words. So what do they use? For example, you saw someone you dont like and first thing that comes to your mind was "Hey how come his ear is like gnomes?" So all you do is approached hom and called "Hey gnome, you need a surgery to your ear." Apologies if any of these is related to you but this is just a metaphor of what I experienced

Or even you saw someone with a big head or a head too large for the body and you go swinging your head in front of him considering the inertia of the head causes it to swing. This is how dominant they can be.

And to even worsen the fact, even friendships with others worsened. Just imagine the close friendship you built with someone and because of all this ill treatment of sword bleeding of words you started to be influenced by them. For example: someone ask "never go lunch with ....?" Or " Dun go to .... For.... Go here..." these are the things that people do to like sort of break the friendship. You got someone you brainwash and you use him as a weapon. Well dont mind him showing off his hatred but using someone to spread hatred.... Even worse a close friend well in the end you all are gonna pay for the mistake

So my point here is in life we all have surely someone who is unhappy about each of us. Humans are made different, with different views, attributes, physical and intelligence. So what happens if people do not like either of these I mentioned and maybe more? Discrimination and hatred followed. So just open your eyes and ears and reflect and not just making fun of people. All you need is a hit on the head once for you to realise where you stand in this

Introducing my new "cockpit"
All that you need cockpit. Well havent been playing the flight sim for many months well finally got to feel again how is it like flying with real aircraft.
And for the term break I will equip myself with this training to fly like a pilot and now looking for new joystick for different aircaft. Tried it on a bigger aircraft but it doesnt seem to work as well so after seeing kenneths flight set, I swear that Im gonna look for it but lets put aside for the next few years cos I herd that the new FSX is coming out.... Hmmm

Wahh this is what happens if u left blog for long.....
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Well now it seems that we understand the true colours of everyone as time pass by
Let me tell you, some people just purposely want to find fault with others without the person findingfault with him
And now all blame is on me
And well some are just blind followers everything just follow without understanding the situation
True enough I easily get disturbed by most of us but sometimes this is a test of patience for us to handle situation.
And when we are unable to handle this tricky situation like facing with people.... Others will view us in a negative way and soon followers started and soon you will be challenging in a 1 on 10 battle.....
Discrimination occured and it got worse as time passes
And the moment when discrimination started, you are at a losing end.....
And what hurts most is just an incident..... Only one incident is all it takes for a friendship to be severed even those who are just blind followers

I wont say much because I hate saying much. So to those who started finding fault, better start to realise your wrongdoings before its all too late. And to the blind followers who just follow without even knowing the situation, open your eyes and think what have I done to you and what you have done to me..... To sum it up all I need is to reflect what you have done to me and what Ive done to you.... Before its too late